Keep On Keeping On

What am I doing now? Good question. I am literally sitting on Reece's couch typing and watching Get Him to the Greek. But what else is going on?

Still talking to M. He's been restless and short the last few days, so now I'm giving him space. I doubt he misses me, but when he does he'll come back. It could be something someday, but for now he's too emotionally damaged for a relationship. At least he's honest.

I'm on another dating site, but I still haven't gone out. I lose my nerve, or the guys do/say something pervy, and then I just don't want to go. Apathy. It's a beautiful thing...yeah...

So far it's ok being back at Mom and Dad's, but it's definitely still lonely. Very lonely. Makes even the pervs sound a little tempting...uh, don't think about that.

Let's sum it up: Single? yup. Lonely? definitely. Still haven't forgiven them? Sounds about right. So for now, I'm going to say that the status quo remains unchanged.

On Meeting New People

So last time I mentioned that I had started making new friends. There's the girl next door, Sarah Q. Sarah's sister Christine, and her brother Sean. And then Sarah F. and other people that I met at a party that I crashed with Reece. New friends are nice, but I still prefer my old ones lol. But One of the  people I met is absolutely amazing. Loves travel and adventure, and books and music, and is a family oriented person at heart. And there are a million other things that just floor me. His name is ...going to remain a secret. So I'm just going to refer to him as M.

I've only known him for 10 days. We talk every day, texting or facebook, or the night we actually hung out, walking and talking for over 3 hours. He makes me think. He makes me feel interesting, where I've mostly felt like I've been boring people, even my best friends. And I haven't even mentioned how pretty he is. 

I haven't told anybody this, not even Reece (although she'll know as soon as I post this lol). When M. and I met at that party, we made eye contact, and I experienced deja vu. This is not the first time it's happened to me, but it's definitely the first time a person has ever triggered it. And maybe it means something. And maybe it's nothing. But it's certainly interesting.